~MoO MoO~: BabY DoN't YoU bReAk mY HeaRt SLoW~

Sunday, January 16, 2005
「 love was in the air, 6:28 AM 」

"Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow" -- Vonda Shepard

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken? Do you say,
Do you say what you mean?
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken?
Do you mean, do you mean what you say?
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

This song really reflects what i feel right now. If he simply doesn't feel for me as much as i think he does, then i think he should really tell me. It's really irritating to have someone tell you that he likes you and that he will be very upset if you're not around and then tell u later that he is unable to commit. I really feel like i'm dispensable to him. Yes, i know that no one in this world is indispensable but if i'm important enough to him, i should be able to feel like i'm indispensable. I also feel like he's leading me on. He doesn't really like me. He's telling me he likes me just so that he'll have a back up. JUST IN CASE he needs a date, JUST IN CASE he gets dumped by another girl, JUST IN CASE he feels that he needs someone to accompany him. I'm around to prepare him for JUST IN CASE situations... sighz~ That kinda feeling really sucks. Sighz~ like i told Alwin, if only my feelings were like notes, when they get messy, all u need to do is sort them out. Too bad my feelings are not notes. Well, like what alwin said, i just have to try harder to forget him then.





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